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Tonight the fresh air tingled my soul; I looked at Clarise as we frolicked playfully through the cold and suddenly said in a hesitant, apprehensive tone, "Clarise I am changing". While at first there was uncertainty in her response, she then reassured me of her unconditional love, and I felt as content as someone who just ate a freshly baked cinnamon & apple pie :-).
I read recently, “Nothing is certain but change” and at this moment I have never felt so assured in this change within myself. You know it’s happening when your connections with certain people suddenly feel uncomfortable, like a line has been disconnected. I feel I am surrounded by people with narrow minds, people who don’t accept or desire to understand, but I have found my escape, creatures who I feel I can trust with my words. Very few, but that is all I need right now.
I found myself watching the Jane Austen Book Club film tonight. Lying there so still on the lounge and yet I felt so moved, taken away. I felt a relation with character Prudie, played by Emily Blunt. Her ultimate desire, so carefully tested throughout the story- beautiful is all.
I currently crave to paint a self portrait in my forest of a backyard, while being nurtured by sunlight and music. A few weeks till freedom & Melbourne. I can't wait.